Erikamerica

That will take the time it will take
I am ready to spend the night here.
I shall not stop, I won't even take a break,
Until I have said everything to your ear.

As long as I haven't found
The words to say to you,
That your departure,for an another ground,
Made me suffer too.

You, who spoke only in actions by trait,
And never with the tenderness.
You, who have never known how to update,
The words of love, those you couldn't express .

You, who had never known how to say I love you,
But who knew how to calm the sadness.
You, with whom I have made the war for so long too,
That I even banished from my prayers, nothing less.

You, who always gave without counting,
Who pushed me so that I reach the balance,
While about freedom I was dreaming
Thinking only, to live without vengence.

You, who looked at me sometimes rough,
You, for whom I was never enough.
You, whose eyes have shot at me a thousand times .
You, whom the hand has known how to strike me sometimes.

You, who occasionally shared with me her big bed,
You remember? I have never said thank you to you.
I felt well under your flowery sheets, its true,
and you were not far, you were like a friend instead.

You, whom I so often disappointed,
You, who are not anymore,

I really know, that me, you loved,
It's just that to express it, you couldn't more

You wanted that I was strong, invincible,
While I was only a quite fragile girl.
You wanted that I was never the target,
Of these people who have a heart only in their pocket.

But you know, the life made me stronger,
I'm not the kid that I use to be.
It's been a long time, I'm not afraid of life, see,
I like it more and more than ever.

But I don't forget that if I am who I am,
It's because of you, Gram.
In your words which followed me for a while,
These words which had hurt me, I had lost my smile.

I did not understand their intention.
You remember.... "You have no personality!"
I understood you wanted that I have my own distinction
But I didn't know it wasn't to offend me .

Today you would be delighted, and I am too.
Because i'm not like them, you see.
Maybe there's some criticism inside of you
But I believe that you'd be proud of me,

I received from you the most beautiful heritage,
This strength which increased in me with age.
This strength which reminds me of you,
This strength which comes to me from you

In my life ,I was lucky to have had you ,
And if I could give to you a soft thank you.
I would make for you a cosy nest ,
In which now in peace you could rest.

Original interpretation by Sally Fletcher (harp)